I hope

I really hope it wasn't me that make you real tired... :'( I really don't mean to... Duty was kinda doing fine for me except a ship got me a shock of my life... A ship going at 15 knots and crossing us without giving any radio call... And we are at drifting... How about that? The pissing part is when I call over the VHF radio, they were not responding.. Lucky with a quick idea I start the engine myself and move ahead and warn those idiot to keep away from the rig... I was happy that I was finally able to act like an officer... Seriously I need to change.. I need to play less and be more serious in my life.. I also need to build up my confidence level and never to take myself down to a lower level... No wonder I get nowhere to get what I want... I miss my daddy... Now I start to worry much abt him I dunno why... :( Its so useless to have siblings I can't depend on... They were all there for his money only... None of them were sincere... This really piss me off after what daddy did to treat them well and believe them... My lesson is never ever to trust my own siblings... Don't come and look for me when you guys are in difficulties** Now I just need to be and start acting like an officer... :)