Nobody

Sometimes I just wonder why am I such a mess.... All I know is I never did it on purpose to let her down... Now I feel ashame.. It is as if I lost such a wonderful friend whom always makes me happy... Just to know she feel good, it brings me joy.. Now I felt that I hurt her, I feel so wrong.... Whatever it is, I hope it don't really effect her badly... I still wanna see that beautiful sweet smile on her face... She look so sweet... That's my kinda taste... It is something you can't get sick of liking unlike beautiful... Somehow I guess she must had felt offended too when I say she is not pretty... Yeah too straightforward... How dumb can I be huh... However, she is someone special regardless how she treat me... I just don't like the feeling of falling in love so easily... :( I hope I can be a firm man.... I don't wanna be the one who like people so much and easily get tricked... I don't wanna be like Jovin... I must be better than her as I am much mature in life... Whatever it is, I still have my studies and I really need to do well to earn my credit.. Also I will need someone to discipline me at saving my money.... :( If only I could have someone who is good that I really could trust, life will be great... All I need is to study hard and save money... My best friend is marrying next year!! I wonder when will it be mine... Hmm...... I have been listening to Yellowcard ever since... Now when the songs is played, it always remind me if Marilyn.... Hahahaha Now she leave me that trace... Thanks Marilyn for being such a wonderful person to me... However I'm really sorry that if I ever hurt you... Till now I'm still not sure who are you really angry at... All I know is that I had been stalking you.. At the same time, I also believe that I'm not the only one... You must be a wonderful girl that you had so much admirer... Haiz Just what am I....? Gonna need some rest... I wanna look forward to my morning duty.... Evening....