Responsibility

Alright, my bad..... I left my responsibility last night... I don't know but this sounds really funny on the other side... As an officer, we need to have some responsibility... But on the other hand, I am just a cadet.... What was thought in my school is that we cadet do not have any responsibility... We are only a trainee officer... But yeah, in some way I was wrong but partially also not very wrong... All I did last night is that I went shore drinking with my Bosun and AB... Only this morning I went back ship... I was supposedly on duty at midnight but I skip for duty as I was dead drunk and went to sleep in the hotel instead... Even this morning, my head really hurt badly... I was reprimand by my chief officer hours ago... 2nd mate told me that it was a mess in the morning as chief officer also not present in the bridge... The port station control was calling on us on VHF radio and no one to answer... Our ship only reply to their call at 6 when 2nd officer was on duty.... Was said that the captain did not know about the situation... But for sure, captain know that I was not present for duty cuz I was reprimanded by the chief mate in front of the captain... Captain seems calm about it but who knows what is hidden beneath..? Anyway I should just be more concern about this chief mate... Probably because he was also not in the bridge, he got so pissed off knowing I wasn't there too.... The skool send me down for attachment is for study.. That is true but what am I gonna learn in the middle of the night when the ship is not navigating at all..? Sometimes, all these people just wanna take advantage of the cadet... It was suppose to be their responsibility if anything goes wrong... Even the crew said that I wasn't at any responsibility....haiz Anyway I need to buck up... Tomorrow onwards is a different shift.... I'll be on from 6 to 12 with 2nd instead... Now gotta report for duty...