Living In Fear

Today wasn't good at all... Afternoon I woke up with a bad migrane... Seriously I seldom have all these weird things goin on... It just felt weird... And suddenly many things came running thru my mind... The 1st of course is my daddy... I was so worried about him... Eventually he would had to be discharge from the hospital 18 of this month... But he was isolated weeks back for hitting a doctor.. My poor daddy, he was all stress up and none of my siblings sincerely care for him.. They are only there for his money... Fuck them... In this world, money drive people crazy and bad... But at the same time, without money we are nobody.....haiz I just don't know how I feel now.. I'm so confuse... Not knowing what is right when I'm wrong.. Every little thing seems to be a mistake... Friends are not telling me where I'd gone wrong but they will just laugh when they share the stories... Feelings are so tendered and I never wanna play with it again... In the past I don't believe in saying but I just show by my action but this time, I need to say and give action... At the same time, what can I expect? I'm just a nobody... I don't earn any income or do I have anything with me.. How will I ever know if someone likes me or not? But again, this life is just a game.... I need to be calm at my losing end and that only makes me a real man... I really don't know if you ever read this, but I'm really sorry if ever I did that offended you Marilyn... I never did that with intention... I swear that i'm just confuse... I don't know is it me or is it my imagination... My imagination really run wild sometimes... Sometimes I thought ppl are refering to me when it is not... Oh well, who am I?