Living In Fear

I guess this time I need to get serious with life... Friends are the only distraction now... No more relationship and I really hope I don't fall..... I wanna go poly, do well, graduate and work hard for my future... I really wanna honeymoon with my future wife in Venice... I cannot just dream and do nothing... The past has failed me but this time I won't fail myself.... I will be stronger indeed... I know I have lost nothing or regret anything.. All these get me growing stronger.. Even stronger than HULK....lol Ok the Keppel Shipyard has called me yesterday and look into my case.. I hope I get a sponsor from the company... Offshore is the real deal now.. Especially Oil & Gas.. Gonna put full focus on my study... All these while I haven't get any job but finally I have one.. Tomorrow start working in the bar in Dempsey Road.. I hope everything go smoothly.. I hope to do long term in the bar while doing my study in polytechnic... It's a blessing in disguise... Now I know why.. Maybe god don't want me to waste my money on alcohol drink... I had been a damn alcoholic since the past 4 months... I hope I can slow down drinking... I don't blame anyone though.. It's my fault to turn to alcohol in times of depression... I hope I can cope well, slow down alcohol and start picking up back in body building... I want to have a good shape.. :) I hope all my friends out there will support me too.... I won't wanna let myself down this time... Hope I get some blessing from God... :)