Living In Fear

Seriously, I think it is weird.... I don't remember taking up so much time with my ex and not having her with her friends.... In fact, I really encourage her many times for her to have her own group of friends and be happy.... Now it seems like I'm the one taking up her time and not allowing her to spend much time with her friends... How weird can these be.... But my conscious is clear... I rather her have her clique of friends and be with em other than just me.... Anyway not that I was mad to express all these things but just feel kinda shock.... No worries cuz I'm not tryin to defend anything but shits really happen.... Now I get news saying that Bourbon is terminating me... Thanks to all the alcohol that sit with me in times when I really need them when I was away... I don't blame anyone on this termination but myself... I could had choose to turns to other things when I was depress but I choose liquor and hard drinks.... Oh well, shits happen..... Yeah shits really happen, not only in my life but to others as well..... And this goes to you motherfucker, I'm not done with you so don't try to act all cool... I'm a fucking tiger and I will behave like one... So don't get shock if I pound you out of nowhere... You will get utterly disappointed just to realize that I wasn't there to physically hit you... But what u get is something U gonna deserve fooker..... Yesterday I was out with Marie for movie and hell, she treat me dinner at Hong Kong cafe... I seriously wanna pay for myself and she don't wanna accept.... But sure I will treat her back cuz my thumbdrive still with her..... hahahaha I know I very clever de.... I watch the show Guilivver's Travel like 2 times liao... hahahaha But I still had fun cuz all I want is her to enjoy the movie... I can hear her voice chuckling and laughing away in the theater... So sweet... hahaha She really remind me of Jovin but many time she emphasize to me saying she is not.... Maybe I just miss that small presence with me in the movies.... Anyway, I'm ok with Jo..... I believe she has grown to be the person who she really is... She was never that happy with me in the past but I'm glad cuz we get along ok now... Only when I read her blog and I realize I need somethings written in mine.... hahaha Till then I wanna continue relaxing... I'm having a man date later with my junior.... Gonna talk and get some advice from him.... Seriously, though he is my junior, he is a my senior in age wise... hahahaha Alrite peeps, Chao....