Living In Fear

Alright, school is starting just around the corner and I have been maintaining my composure... Actually I kinda stress but I'm maintaining it well... Stress about the studies that I will face and my finance and meeting new people in school... *Sigh I hope I can really cope very well in the new environment... Most probably I doubt Overtime @ Holland Village will send me back to Dempsey... Anyway I'm doing fine in the outlet there... Meet great peeps there just that haven't hangout with them yet.... I went for orientation few days ago and met all the engineering students of my batch... Some of them are really cool like As Soon the old AhBeng, not that really old ah but younger than me and Zul.. Zul is just like me, a damn prankster.. Lucky we not in the same class..... hahahahahaha I need to complete my 1st year and 2nd year still need to decide to study wat course nia... Oh ya, that day I saw my ex's cousin together with my regular customer at Holland Village... Seriously I can't really recognize her maybe because she put on weight... Last time she so pretty lor.... hahaha Oh well, I heard weird stuff about myself... I was shocked actually.. Don't say myself, even Chris my regular customer was shocked to heard those rumors about myself... Anyway I can't control the story that is being told about me but whatever it is, I'll just let it be... People have eyes to open and see who I really am.... I'm not that difficult or do I that simple.... I have my own belief of making decision but still I can't guarantee that my way is right... Different people accept different approach... But whatever I'm doing, I have a long term thoughts in my head.... I always have a good plan but I always wouldn't want her to know what my plan is cuz I wanna surprise her... I thought I could have a wonderful wedding with her... I was actually planning to propose you not with an expensive ring actually but with a BMW car... Why BMW cuz it said BeMyWife... Isn't that romantic? ah fuck.... Looks like this won't ever happen since I quit my sea life.... Now I just wanna enjoy my life being single...... But I know I still miss her love..