Living In Fear

Well well well..... After so long since I left blogger and now I'm back.... Okay how should I start? Hmmmmm.. Alright I shall talk about skool 1st... Skool was pretty okay and now I'm on the holiday.... Starting my 3rd year soon and I can't wait for my internship. Today a bad day cuz the part time job showed me that they are a fucked up employer... Well well I hope and I believe bad things will come to their business.... Hey and about my personal life if you hadn't notice it, well I am attached to a filipina girl now... Moving on after Jovin however she is still a good friend to me... Well I have no say much about the current relationship because it hasn't beat my past... Yet I dunno why I give so much to the current relationship but still I feel kinda shaky and insecure.... There wasn't assurance for this relationship that I am in. It is so confuse that I have to accept the fact that she might be sleeping with someone else if she go back to her home country... Tell me how else can I feel and how much dilemma I was put in to make that decision... I have to accept that or else she will not be returning to singapore... Just because I love her so much I have to accept that... Seriously I felt hurt but I have to accept that just because I really wanna save our relationship... However I always hope whatever way I'd been treated, I pray they get back 10 times worst.... Haiz Seriously I'm fucking sick being treated this way... If only you people know what kind of relationship I am in, then u will understand the shit I'd been thru on this current relationship.....