Living In Fear

Does anything really make sense? Been smoking back since I started my part time job doing delivery assistant.... It's more of a tiring job but at least I enjoy doing it. Of course my boss enjoy my company talking shit while he drives because I'm absolutely certified cockster.....LOL We had a good time and I do share my opinion on his business and things he can look into. He was also kinda sad when he know I can't work for him long enough because I got a career in hand.. I try to make myself happy though when I know deep down I'm not okay.. Hell who cares? My 2nd day pay, I bought a guitar pedal for the purpose of making riffs to the new song I plan to write. However the next day I drop my guitar and the neck and headstock were dismembered..... I got it fix today however it is not completely fixed. Still not sure if this can work after being fixed... If not probably have to change the body for the guitar.. The next song I'm gonna write about is gonna be meaningful one... Probably about some asshole? I have no idea but we'll wait and see....LOL Have you gotten that feeling where at times you were blocked and unblocked from communication? Hahaha Yeah it look stupid but honestly I feel hurt at times... Anyway it's for her own benefit anyway cuz if her bf finds out abt me, probably her worthless boyfriend will have a street fight with her..... So I just let it be la... As long she is safe, that shouldn't bother me.... So the 2rd interview with the HR manager was good... I was impress when she say she is happy to find a young individual like me for the company... Young? I was lost....lol Anyway as long she happy can ler.. I wanna put my next focus on my career, then slowly get things done... I wanna put braces, modified my house like buying new wardrobe, new bed and slowly refurbish my house. How I wish I have a women to help me out in this......LOL I believe I will be fine doing it alone...